Learning to Walk the Way of Jesus

It has been almost a year since my baptism.

Walking with God has been a gift, a deep blessing.

But working with God, behaving in Jesus way has been something else entirely.

It is commitment. It is surrender. And sometimes, it feels like a fight.

I find myself in an awkward space — no longer a non-believer, but far from a mature believer. I must be honest that my spiritual journey has not been smooth. Just two months after my baptism, I faced challenges that left me feeling spiritually unsettled. I felt lost, and I paused. For a long time, I called myself a “wild Christian”, without a stable environment for spiritual growth, I found myself around people I struggled to love and behaviours that tested my moral boundaries. These moments made serving or spreading God's love feel far more difficult than I expected..

Even now, I must confess: living in the way of Jesus is hard.

As a student, learning Bible stories, discussing ideas, and sharing reflections come easily, like attending lectures. But truly living out Jesus’ teachings in real life often feels impossible.

Letting go of principles shaped over the past twenty years is not simple.

Loving those who are difficult.

Showing grace where I want justice.

Choosing humility when everything in me wants to resist.

I read about meekness, yet in real conflict, my heart is often anything but gentle.

But in this struggle, God did not leave me, and neither did His people.

There is a lyric I love:“I come to Jesus, lay down my weakness. No need for hiding, here in His light”

That line describes my daily reality.

This journey is not about instant transformation. It is about confess, returning, again and again, to Scripture, to prayer, and to God, fighting the quieter battles within my heart.

I am still struggling, but I am still choosing to come back.

Shared Wisdom

“I didn’t stop struggling.I stopped pretending I wasn’t.”

“Faith didn’t make me better overnight. It keeps calling me back, again and again.”